Santa Claus (20060920)

I did not know until about fourth grade elementary school, the existence of Santa Claus.Once a year, there was food and luxurious, may get to buy my mother a favorite toy certainly do not know the meaning.I thought I was a "whim of the mother", it.

And want you to buy the toy she urged, I remember it was roller skating with transceiver. I had bought both.However, had my toys, so that there was no wrapping is always, and there is special meaning did not think.Because it was obvious even to buy clothes, also bought a pair of shoes, peel off all the wrapping paper and boxes, get put in an offhand manner to the bag in a state of bare, and bring back, otherwise, Was a not sometimes wonder was.Mother says, "Wrapping is garbage" is from.

With friends, so never have the story of Santa Claus, was a child do not know the meaning of Christmas.Since I was often playing outside, even if you do not know Pink Lady was popular at that time, had been teased.

As an aside.Until about elementary school, Christmas and New Year is to get together every year to the house of my maternal grandfather was the usual practice.Christmas on this day, I was asking the public about 10 fried butcher in the neighborhood, it was decided to go to take in children.Butcher so I'll say from now, and want of have been waiting a little, we decided to wait while looking at giving it away.Then, remove the dead of whole chicken, I started to judgment. Although small amounts of blood and flew.Children are a people who did not move.Fried of the day, without being anyone with a hand, I remember I was angry adults.

Story is a little bit and then come back, while aware of the existence of Santa Claus from,I remember before going to bed, "I want something," I wish it had been.But what had been praying and What do you want, but do not remember, really wish that had been strongly you remember.
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サンタクロース　 　　　　（20060920）

私はサンタクロースの存在を、小学校４年生くらいまで知りませんでした。
確かに年に一度、豪華な食事と、意味も解らなく好きな玩具を母に買ってもらえる事がありました。
私はそれを、「　母の気まぐれ　」なのだと思っていました。


買って欲しいとねだった玩具は、トランシーバーとローラースケートだったのを覚えています。どちらも買ってもらいました。
ですが、買ってもらった玩具はいつもラッピングをされたことも無かったので、特別な意味があるとは思いませんでした。
洋服を買っても、靴を買っても、箱や包み紙全てを剥がして、むき出しの状態で袋に無造作に入れてもらって、持ち帰るのがあたりまえだったので、別段、不思議に思うこともありませんでした。
母曰く、「　ラッピングはゴミになる　」からです。


友達とも、サンタクロースの話をしたこともなかったので、クリスマスの意味を知らない子供でした。
私は外で遊ぶことが多かったので、当時流行っていたピンクレディも知らなくて、からかわれていました。


余談ですが。
私が小学生くらいまでは、毎年クリスマスや年末年始は母方の祖父の家に集まるのが恒例でした。
この日のクリスマスも、近所のお肉屋さん１０人前くらいの唐揚げを頼んでいたので、子供たちで取りに行くことになりました。
お肉屋さんは今から揚げるから、ちょっと待っていての欲しいと言ったので、私たちは揚げるのを見ながら待つことにしました。
すると、丸ごとの死んだ鶏を取り出して、捌き始めたのです。血が少量ですが、飛びました。
子供たちは誰一人、動けませんでした。
その日の唐揚げは、誰も手を付けられず、大人たちが怒っていたのを覚えています。


それから話は少し戻るのですが、サンタクロースの存在を知ってからしばらくの間、
寝る前に「　なにかが欲しい　」と、お祈りしていたのを覚えています。
けれど、なにが欲しいとお祈りしていたのかは覚えていませんが、強く本気でお祈りしていたことは覚えています。