- Past elementary school diary -

No. ○ ○ rags. (20060821)

Elementary school was located in the area are much more closed.Also, a new elementary school comes into, is our children who lived for generations come from parents' generation. Was like that.So, that relationship of filthy-acquaintance, it was not that uncommon if the original Tadase between parents.Was not that it is sometimes less, up to the bullying of children's generation, they chained.

Horse race of a pair of two people.I will be on all fours, was "horse" of girls rated the strongest leader.The name of the horse, "No. ○ ○ rags." I was with myself.Well, now wearing one. Deliberately fell in the middle of the Dari, the half, but now last place.Rated girl leader, told me that "next! It my best ○ ○!", And fixed.

Children in mind, I cannon "We are all dealing with children, but much easier" and I thought.I would not easy to understand, unlike adults.If thrown away the pride of a little, I learned that very easy to live.But I also felt that injustice somewhere. At that time, do not know the meaning, but only vaguely.

Has devised a variety of play.(Now that we have invented a lot of historical research era. I'm sorry. Can not be confident in yourself)Since I was playing on a daily basis in the Kisaten, was playing every day as invaders game.Or unilaterally made the game hit the children use the ball to tip it, girl reader has been rated in the side wall to the invader.While humming the "Bibi Bibibi ー", in the tail end of the children that I have become invaders, watching plays a "UFO" in the next run.Was careful not to escape from being bullied as long as insidious bullying, while pretending always docile, can be.

Bullying, was also on a rotating basis. This was a flow can not do anything."○ ○, since much has not been bullied, I Shikato from tomorrow" and.If you also happen suddenly, there was also "default judgment" to be held in place of the absent person.Until yesterday, I wish very close, the next morning is the hub of a sudden (ostracism).

If you think that is popular with bullying, this time, there was a kiss that suddenly catch on.In the morning greetings, it is a girl to kiss each other. Had a kiss with a girl of about 10 people too.I of this time, so thought I was fastidious disease itself, I remember I bought quite tight.
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> Trial in absentia
The invitation-"Let's go home together, very gently," target-to girl becomes "default judgment"-a girl of about one to three human after school
The return together-very-happy-girl-so most


-But it is
"Kuchiura suit"-is because you can have in-class girls


The luring-in without being noticed, the "trial in absentia"-to be the target of bullying and girls who
What attributable to the house
Will be discussed during the day, 1-3, they also


When I get home-girl and become a target
"Default judgment"-is-it starts in the women's class as "a defendant" without the girl-of-target


· Attitude myself saying mukatsuku
-Had to say-ill-of Daredare (it such as "back-channel feedback"-of the check-located, multi-we may not be the intention of the principal. Bullying)
Made from-what-what


The end of the discussion, such
I take-a verdict
> If you become a "default judgment"-without exception-nearly-in most cases have been confirmed "(bullying) guilty",,,,


Will be discussed, as well as the contents of bullying at this time
The "? Degree guilty"-that
· Women's overall Shikato
· When the teacher-in the entire women's "good friend". Followed-up to go home is ill-harsh-but-is not at
-Or-him, such as broken or discarded textbooks and
(By the next do not let me in, etc.-to-group)


Period, such as the type of bullying and is being discussed, in the "trial in absentia",,,,


※ (such as physical violence had wielded, but not performing ·) has at this time · Sometimes, such as "girls, was too much"
At that time there was also a girl-that-is-not suddenly bullying they receive to start the trial in absentia, as it is, "and trial in absentia"-in the whole-class girls,,,
↑ This is bullying from across the girl's class has been shifted to other girl-honesty, and was too bullying me, a girl the other, suddenly, I had been bullying me • The "speed" I was surprised,,,,


> Justice? To and standards of,,, I was surprised,,,
From this time,,, now, to focus, such as "madness of numbers",,,

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＞－過去日記・転載・小学校・低学年時代－

○○ボロ号。　 　　　　　　（20060821）


小学校は、とても閉鎖された地域にありました。
親の代から何代も住んで来た方たちの子供たちが、また新たに小学校に入ってくる。そんな感じでした。
ですから、親同士が元をただせば知り合い・険悪の仲ということは、それほど珍しいことではありませんでした。
それが時には、子供たちの世代のイジメにまで、連鎖してしまう事も少なくありませんでした。


二人一組の馬のレース。
私は四つんばいになり、一番強いリーダー格の女の子の「馬」でした。
馬の名前は、「○○ボロ号」。私が自分で付けました。
よく、一着になりました。けれど半分くらいを、わざと途中で転んだりして、ビリになりました。
リーダー格の女の子は、「○○！次は頑張ろう！」と、決まって言ってくれました。


子供心に、私は「子供を相手にしているほうが、遥かにラクだ」と思っていました。
大人と違い、なんて解り易いんだろうと。
少しのプライドを捨てれば、とても生きやすい事を知りました。
だけど、どこか不公平差も感じていました。当時は意味も解らなく、ただ漠然とですが。


いろんな遊びを考案しました。
（たくさん考案したので、時代考証は自分でも確信できません。ごめんなさい。）
私はキサテンで毎日のように遊んでいたので、インベーダーゲームも毎日のように遊んでいました。
それをヒントにボールを使い、リーダー格の女の子が壁側でインベーダーになっている子供たちを一方的にぶつけるゲームを作ったり。
私がそのインベーダーとなっている子供たちの最終尾で、「びびびびびー」と口ずさみながら、横走りに「ＵＦＯ」を演じてみたり。
陰湿なイジメから逃れるように、常におとなしいフリをしながら、出来る限りイジメられないように気をつけていました。


イジメは、順番制でもありました。これはどうにもならない流れでした。
「○○は、あまりイジメられていないから、明日からシカトね」と。
いきなり起こる事もあれば、本人の居ない場所で開かれる「欠席裁判」もありました。
昨日までは、とても仲が良かったのに、あくる朝には突然のハブ（村八分）。


イジメが流行っているかと思えば、今度はいきなりキスが流行ることもありました。
朝の挨拶で、女の子同士キスをするのです。私も１０人くらいの女の子とキスをしました。
この頃の私は、自分自身を潔癖症だと思っていたので、かなりキツかったのを覚えています。