I'm sorry. . . (20060808)
Hey.Why not? Why did you invite me at that time?High school last Christmas Eve.You and I, but also did not talked much.A child of your best friends, probably because seats are close, but I was talking to the assignment, I'm not a special relationship was good.
We had a girls' high school.Child and your best friend, you are a child of another person. Invited and do not come to stay in four of me.Its members, a special relationship was good but I'm not with anyone.Still, why did you invite me I wanted to know, I did OK out of curiosity.Why not?I do not know.Why not?Because the relationship was declared, that I broke up upon graduation, once the relationship is over there.Hey? Why was that? Is that why?
Not knowing the answer, I became now.You from the dead, I will soon seven years.It was two years in the same class. I've heard from you that it was much like me.Why not? Although I had no choice but to hate me. Why did you like me have?You gave me I'm like me hates me.Also loved you, I did not even once that I thought it was love.However, somehow.Because that was it.
When I heard you had died of cancer, I could not move.Even though there are many things you want to hear.Someday, I thought I would get back together again.At the time of graduation, I was from, it is unilateral "covenant".Forever, and I'm sure they accept it, you had thought without meaning.I was also good been rejected. I'm sure I have, and it is fun.In addition, only about ー do I re-Chare, because I did not think.Because I thought I had been rejected, it is a fun in it.
You are dead, I have changed.That you did not even think, I have no idea.Your feelings. My feelings.That men and women who go out to but you.Confess that it was going out from me cry.Always, why do we, I was dating you realize.Even if no romantic feelings. . . . . . . . . .
What people love? (Can not find the answer)I fell in love, What does it look like? (I always have to spoil that person)After all, I do not know yet.There are people who say "people friendly" to me.I do not have gently. Only there is no desire to argue or fight, to push people out of the way and,Because not matter, because the troublesome, just by yield. .Because I do not want to hurt, also hurt, just laughing. .I wish so much at heart the worst.
You say I say hurt and hate. .Nothing but hurt in the end.Really "people friendly", something I could not care less, not sure.
If people hurt, we are hurt myself someday.I had never even hurt someone,Forever, this time, his own conscience will not allow that it has my own.I lost the stability of the heart. Would have been tormented by guilt.
So, I might want to be a lie too gently.Only a lie, but do not lie.Even myself, which is what a true feelings, already, though I do not know anymore.
Still, "I want to live", now that I think strongly.I think someday I get the answers to your own, and you want out.I think time is also flounder, I'm sure, and I need.So ugly, even the excuse yourself.Still, I think I might want to go live food.
Yeah. It is ugly. Not gracefully.Still, I live.I live, I will surely give the answer this time.And I live to laugh. Lazy live. I live brisk.What do you choose to live someday, and I know I do not.For now, the answer is I'm only one out.It is "to live."
I live, I will face it head on and came to my own. . . Still, live.It is also about to be crushed by pangs of conscience, live absolutely not run away.It just has decided.
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