2012年5月28日月曜日

- (-Photo birthday) - past elementary school diary -

Is a birthday party, with the maternal grandmother and cousin and start-

 Stove, leave out all year round in a
 In the winter, on top of the stove, put the oranges
 The order was, I ate

Later, I heard my mother
 Uncommon, but my father came back
 Having trouble with a woman other living expenses,
 And "do not have enough money from work-in" mother-to,
 If we just stopped by to ask, I've heard


 Cousin in the picture is
Death on the one cousin
 Later from him-
 Grandmother of one year in the home
 Now receive, the sexual abuse


This room, farthest from the living
 -Have become "blind spot, the eyes of the adults"
 This time, that you want to take care of his father dovecote
 To type "their brother" of three junior high school students


 With the exception of two (later ←, but coming as regular employees of mother-to canteen, it will say mentally ill,,,)
The "older brother"-one
 Has continued to be "mischievous" for several years



> Memory of the lower grades of elementary school (20060819)
 http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10795638274.html

 The house there was a large dovecote.
I had a pigeon race of father, older brother who also, I wanted to take care of the pigeon, had come over to my house a little better.
However, as I mentioned to her childhood, being a human touch to the older brother becomes unpleasant,
I was in love with people rather than gradually, watching television.



> Maya bees.
 http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10783609459.html

 Older brother who also had come within, we loved me as being similar to Maya.
Except for the older brother of one person.
Did not become an unpleasant brother somewhere that is also being hug, also get stroked.
I did not want touched, was going to have to protest against the older brother in the play fighting with! "Quit".
It is for the older brother, seems to have been the opposite effect though.
I was triumphantly cockhorse to brother, and? "Uncle".
Another, I wanted not touch.



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That is reflected to the right it was my "corridor"-


 > History of "house" number of 30-year-from childhood? And,,,
 http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10952217684.html

 Initially honeymoon? We are old-fashioned mother-of-the-I asked a Western-style house? Mother's shock at that time, large-making-the "old-fashioned house, with corridors in the house"-that of master builder of Dyke? Seemed to de ━ d (· ω · `o) ━ to

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Is "birthday party" in-house restaurant and maternal grandparents,
 Or whose birthday is a little, but I do not know


 From my mother (now, ^ ^ (For there is a telephone;;; to go bath>, today probably because of the weather, so noisy dogs during bath mother so that with me custody. I'm going down> a little, because there are photos to be wearing, you've seen)



To about one year after this,
 From the brother of the mother, one year
 Every day, came to receive-the sexual abuse


 Why would not? And, I think,,,



Looking back,
 My uncle, for some reason, "made ​​me a rice-" me-only
 And I am looking for,
 Uncle of new products
 • When the noodles Katayaki, waiting for me, playing with


 "Look, this Chieko eat!,!, Or tell me what there is not enough"-uncle, is said to
 Make, such as those of his uncle, but did not want to eat,
 That around, uncle, it does not forgive me, and eat the new products made ​​of uncle
 My uncle, "you're good if you?? Or something missing," and heard in rapid succession because it comes
 I think that while troublesome, and try to examine, the "chow mein" type made ​​of uncle



Normally, but it's delicious
 • The "Rashi is like", so there was no luck, when you point it out
 "If you think not enough, I see! 'S Rashi is Hiroshi! Something! Thank you! Was Rashi is like"-uncle, uncle, as usual, thanks are patted on the head was told,,, so, I felt complex,,,


 My uncle, for some reason, from the past
 My-wife-
 His son-in-
 My-parents-
 • (my mother ←), his sister, without asking
 To me, You can also ask for an opinion but do not make the rice, too much to anyone other
 To me, restless, has made ​​us, the "one person"




> - Age and low-grade elementary school reprint past diary -
 · ○ ○ Chin. (20060824)
 http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10801273141.html

 Mother's youngest brother.
My mother was the eldest daughter was born the third of four brothers.
Youngest brother is born weak body, "and can not live up to the age of twenty," is the total has been said to the doctor.



 >. I · ゚ ゚ who grew up in a healthy home environment (N s ~ A (Roh Д `) will be offended and amoeba-and-mother
http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10712715915.html

 Baba had loved, particularly, the third son, the youngest-
 And heart by nature is weak
 Hole in the heart? I seems to have is


Seems to have been said • If you do not live up to the age of twenty-

 So the grandmother-
 It is said that the third son, and not let me come-from school
 "Please let objection, does not attend. So to all schools, even though he dies, is this child in the class" and-grandmother,,,


My grandmother, is the third son.
 Either with or without you-also-also play study
 You have been, the only love that
 > Because I thought, and die,,,

 And flow-month is,,,


I-10 at the age of
 Grandmother's home, and a fifth-grade year
 Along with the third son and his wife, had spent

 Every day,,,
 The third son, and grandfather,,,
 > Had received sexual-abuse

 When the body weight of about 44 km • The lean-to to about 38 km, the third son
 • In the face-was seen as "? Or blame it on me", the third son, I feel like crying

 Anger-about-never felt so far was Wye,,,

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↑ was surprised when I saw this photo,,,,
· • What I do not know "who was taken-"This was spent in-place "from a year-at the age of 10" at the maternal-,,,
To very complicated feelings, to "(Photos) expression" own-Now even if Motte, It should be noted that,, I,,,


> Desi ゞ 154cm (o `· ω ·)!! About 82 km de ━ d (· ω ·` o) ━ ☆ Starhttp://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11100210174.htmlWord of resentment to his father and mother a request from the home visiting teacher of psychic → → chastisement occasionally be a time to be mischievous pranks are their grandfather to go to school bullying → → → → The toilet occasionally bullied from school → → → go to school to sleep →
↑ was "a year-at the age of 10"-like,,,
-Stuffed
↑ other than infant age, photos have a "stuffed", so I did not have one-piece,,, this photo is, so, I myself, felt that "strange",,, very, There is no sense in feeling bad, being felt, is a picture,,,


> Paralysis of the face? Facial neuralgia? > I do not know-so-disease have never been to the hospital-http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10884137224.htmlAt the age of 10Repeated sexual abuse within-the-job or> Face paralysis? Now-Eyelid-Mouth

> Tobioriro from the second floor and the knife-and-4 Baba brothers and their mother, Jiji and! Daisakusen! • When drunken episode? Is ☆http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11127166755.html↑ room was "room" of the photo above, had their mother-reared childhood-
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>-Generalhttp://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10512433704.html★ ★ faceMr. Keiji Goto, a lawyer of 50 police officials aim to eradicate child pornography from @☆ there is an unforgettable experience. 1998 was working on Internet crime in the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department. Was referred to sarcastically as "a brave person who came in from a superpower that child pornography" from the moderator, at a meeting of the (ICPO) International Criminal Police Organization was held in France. And Japan at the time such images covering the eyes and there is no law to regulate child pornography had been leaked all over the world. Lowering the head-to investigation officials "sorry" in each country was enough to do. Seemed inadequate regulatory Law for Punishing Acts Related to Child Prostitution and Child Pornography of enforcement of the following year. Wound of the heart-child of the subject can not say a lifetime. "Why does Japan insensitive to pain of the children why this much" jumped out, police organizations and 2005. I passed the bar exam during his tenure of 92 years. "I wanted familiar with the law." Faced with law book on holiday or when commuting. 33-year-old. Was passed in the fourth challenge. Tensin was after flying to petition to lawmakers, such as asking for the prohibition of simple possession of child pornography, a lawyer. At the end of March was also formed group 0 lawyer role. "Child pornography is child abuse itself." Belief does not change.(Tomitokoro Kosuke Sasaki, Noriaki social unit shooting)
 
> Overcome extremes-Adult ChildrenStill, digested, and he must overcome, I think,,,

This is, data of one
As will be one sample,,,

Right now the children, are suffering from bullying and abuse, as we will be saved even a little,,,
Everyone for Adult Children should be noted that even now suffering, as we will be saved even a little,,,
 
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>-過去日記・転載・小学校時代-( 写真・誕生日 )-
 
母方の祖母と・イトコたちとの・誕生日会です

ストーブは、1年中出しっぱなしで
冬になると、ストーブの上に、みかんを置いて
あっためて、食べました


後日、母に聞いたのですが
珍しく、父が帰ってきたのは
ほかの女性との生活費に困って、
母に・「 仕事で・お金が足りないから 」と、
もらいに立ち寄っただけだと、聞きました


写真に写っているイトコは
一つ上の・イトコです
のちに・彼から
1年間の祖母宅で
性的虐待を、受けることになりました

2012年5月27日日曜日

- (Start-cousin to the photo and eggplant) - past elementary school diary -

11 years old until I (up to do the dining room are photographs mother)
 Is about 10 people and her cousins​​, and parents of
 That each spend together, a few days of summer vacation
 Had become like a norm, there was a time

all brothers of the maternal, it was doing the restaurant, not to take a "rest" absolutely, summer vacation is to leave my children, but it take to travel the mother, seems to have become the staple (← all costs is likely to have a mother was. grandmother, sister-in-law with us, and to get it to work even a little, my mother is also a total that has been done to)


 From the introduction of (the brother of the second mother ←) cousin's father was growing up as twins
 While, a few years
Eggplant is now the standard-




Photo
-Sexual damage
· To receive from it, the bullying
I, does not reflect as much, now

But when the mother has a photo machine, absolutely,
"Does not reflect" that, because you can not
↑ "chastisement" of mother-of adventure, to anger, because they touch> kick punch
Photos, but can not be denied
Face and strange, like, such as the hand does not reflect in
It came to be to go to? "Twist"


Also, why not?
Many of the photos for some reason, my mother take
> Backlight so many
I remember, very, dazzling, and there was no ginger


I liked it myself, is formed by
Dragonfly has a lot of very-since it was flying


The shower falls
-Earthworm
-Frog
Snake
It is such, there are many
So, because I enjoyed
> In Tokyo, and "the smell of leaves" • Do not feel too much
Because it was love
There is a lot, "play space"-to leave it, the nature
 I was very loved Eggplant


 In this pond, my father,
 Off-balance, the moment was almost falling
 I remember, it dropped a cigarette

I still think that there was a photo, so I forgot, to bring, to the residence of the mother space, and
Just to catch a carp pond, wearing food-Neri


 When not at this time, I think
 And the second brother of the mother (father's sister ←), junior high school? To,
 To condominium of Nasu
 An adult, I went in only one uncle (^ ^;;
 At this time, the laugh ☆ (Gyafun gave-the "food-related trauma" of life-


Carp were caught, but not catch and release
 Uncle, or take a carp of what animals
 > I will be making, the "Koikoku"

opposite was large and I grew up like twins cousin (father of my cousin), Uncle, "from good! Dare eat it!! Good because" they called.

 Much trouble, I got to make,,,
 Koikoku if, from the country of their grandparents, as every year, wrapped in wet newspaper, the carp alive
 For Koikoku, so had eaten once a year
 Somehow, still suspicious, I put the chopsticks · · ·


· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · Il | li impossible not eat · · · · · · | | li_ | ¯ | ○ il |
 Koikoku, unlike the "Koikoku" was eating up to now
 · The Kusaku~tsu
 The oil-Sugoku~tsu
 So, I could not eat (^ ^;; nausea> is did not stop

When the parents came in the delay of several days, this thing, right? It was not sting (laughs


 > Says parents
-Carp, not eat-it-and do not induce vomiting mud Kusaku~tsu
 Carp bait-bait-training will smell

↑ · · · il was bleeding and that | | li_ | ¯ | ○ il | | Tan carp li,,, I bought citric,,, sorry


(Which will be the thing-I have to live together-from the time of about 10 years later ←) younger cousin of two-year-old
 Is not able to catch carp, to fishing rods, with a pan
 The duck was in the pond, when you try to throw
 The type of staff, it was stopped hurriedly ^ ^ (; was impressive>;;



While playing, were stopped by
 · The "at rest"
 Photos to be taken, was very painful,,,


 Will be stopped, and it works
 Was very painful,,,
 And, to be "specified pause" of the photo-
 Was very painful,,,
Unusual? Is a "picture"-that sounds fun


 Women that are reflected in the back
 Because of the time women had been a "rent"-had lent a room on the second floor
 Maybe this photo is a picture of before and after the fourth grade and, I think
  mother do that cafeteria, and the other, in the "mother-organized affairs",,, it was not,,,
> And mother, supplement,,,> "relationship" with the eldest brother,
 http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11150413444.html
 At this time, was doing karate, brother of the mother
 Eldest brother is called to the house
 Yes you "" Please, brother-in that

 Thus, it was decided to go out on the second floor and his wife,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Anime, but it should be done fairly, had seen,,,
 Were seeing their own animated, the most
 I can not remember,,,
Back home, has become the "condominium"-


 Women and above
 I am 10 years old at the time of
 I have all the cost of the mother
 > Such as photos of trip to Okinawa, I did not find (^ ^;;

perhaps, It is also such, may be one of the elements of our relationship mother, little by little, became funny,,,

Mother says
 • From the "toilet paper mother, to sanitary napkins, soy sauce, some within are all, by two people (of Kisaten mother , are through, female childhood friend) child @ @ and go with anything So! I was from, not smart because I said it was even saved money "


 · "My mother even said if mingle long, not useless, first, in good faith too, Cha allowed to enter into the house, and I say I bring anything, it is, not because it becomes the norm"


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↑ was surprised when I saw this photo,,,,

· • What I do not know "who was taken-"This was spent in-place "from a year-at the age of 10" at the maternal-,,,

To very complicated feelings, to "(Photos) expression" own-Now even if Motte, It should be noted that,, I,,,


> Desi ゞ 154cm (o `· ω ·)!! About 82 km de ━ d (· ω ·` o) ━ ☆ Starhttp://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11100210174.html
Word of resentment to his father and mother a request from the home visiting teacher of psychic → → chastisement occasionally be a time to be mischievous pranks are their grandfather to go to school bullying → → → → The toilet occasionally bullied from school → → → go to school to sleep →
↑ was "a year-at the age of 10"-like,,,
-Stuffed↑ other than infant age, photos have a "stuffed", so I did not have one-piece,,, this photo is, so, I myself, felt that "strange",,, very, There is no sense in feeling bad, being felt, is a picture,,,


> Paralysis of the face? Facial neuralgia? > I do not know-so-disease have never been to the hospital-http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10884137224.html
At the age of 10Repeated sexual abuse within-the-job or> Face paralysis? Now-Eyelid-Mouth

> Tobioriro from the second floor and the knife-and-4 Baba brothers and their mother, Jiji and! Daisakusen! • When drunken episode? Is ☆http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11127166755.html
↑ room was "room" of the photo above, had their mother-reared childhood-
· · · · · · · · · · · · · ·
>-Generalhttp://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10512433704.html★ ★ faceMr. Keiji Goto, a lawyer of 50 police officials aim to eradicate child pornography from @☆ there is an unforgettable experience. 1998 was working on Internet crime in the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department. Was referred to sarcastically as "a brave person who came in from a superpower that child pornography" from the moderator, at a meeting of the (ICPO) International Criminal Police Organization was held in France. And Japan at the time such images covering the eyes and there is no law to regulate child pornography had been leaked all over the world. Lowering the head-to investigation officials "sorry" in each country was enough to do. Seemed inadequate regulatory Law for Punishing Acts Related to Child Prostitution and Child Pornography of enforcement of the following year. Wound of the heart-child of the subject can not say a lifetime. "Why does Japan insensitive to pain of the children why this much" jumped out, police organizations and 2005. I passed the bar exam during his tenure of 92 years. "I wanted familiar with the law." Faced with law book on holiday or when commuting. 33-year-old. Was passed in the fourth challenge. Tensin was after flying to petition to lawmakers, such as asking for the prohibition of simple possession of child pornography, a lawyer. At the end of March was also formed group 0 lawyer role. "Child pornography is child abuse itself." Belief does not change.(Tomitokoro Kosuke Sasaki, Noriaki social unit shooting)


> Overcome extremes-Adult Children
Still, digested, and he must overcome, I think,,,

This is, data of oneAs will be one sample,,,

Right now the children, are suffering from bullying and abuse, as we will be saved even a little,,,
Everyone for Adult Children should be noted that even now suffering, as we will be saved even a little,,,

・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・

>-過去日記・転載・小学校時代-( 写真・イトコたちと那須へ )-
テーマ:-過去日記・転載・小学校時代-

私が11歳くらいになるまでは( ←母が・写真食堂をやるまでは )
イトコたちと10人くらいで、うちの両親と
夏休みの数日間を、一緒にすごすごとが
当たり前みたいになっていた、時期がありました

    ↑母方の兄弟全て、飲食店をやっていたので、どうしても「 休み 」がとれず、母が夏休みは子供たちを預かって、旅行に連れて行くというのが、定番になっていたようです( ←全ての費用は・母持ちだったそうです。祖母が、少しでも兄嫁たちと、うまく行くようにと、母はおこなっていたこともあるそうです )


双子のように育っていたイトコの父( ←母の2目の兄 )の紹介から
しばらくの間、数年は
那須が定番に・なりました


2012年5月26日土曜日

- (Festival-photo) - past elementary school diary -

Since this time had been bullied at school
 Anyway, rather than the mother, such as Dubbo, etc. Only one comes to buy
 · Happy neighborhood association
 Such as Dubbo, are sold at its side
  My mother was not convinced-me, still, in the hope that it will among what convinced, was struggling


 Another, this time, do not want to participate in the festival itself was a time there was no ginger
 > Non-Kibishi~i ~ ~ ~ woman (^ ^;;
  The photo-like that? · · · Il | | li_ | ¯ | ○ il | | li


> 81 years and the photographs are displayed, so-
 The next year or this year,
 Maternal,
Brother of the mother-
From mother-father
 (Eldest son of the eldest brother of the mother) cousin
 One year, the sexual abuse. I will receive daily

and grandfather, from cousin was sometimes


I'd be wearing a "yukata", girly
 To my mother, I beg you remember


 My mother-
· Dubbo
 -Bowl
  by far better here! I liked it
 Let that get in the festival wear, yukata itself, there was not much


 • The far right one younger Ikoto
 Happy purple on the left is the brother of the differences between the three



I wanted to wear a yukata-
 It is not much difference between ladylike-(^ ^;;


 This time, still
 Such as festivals, to those who do not know
 I was about to be touching the line of the body
 Yet, also a festival, it may be time did not hate so much,,,


 However, that bullying, continue to escalate annually
 · Happy-the same as everyone
 Happy-Jeans

want to do this dress, my mother, not quite forgive me
 And! "Put on your clothes look good on their own, more" hobby is really bad, "You!" "Not like everyone else", says mother, quite, and Kikitodoke, but was not me,,,

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 ↑was surprised when I saw this photo,,,,



· • What I do not know "who was taken-"
This was spent in-place "from a year-at the age of 10" at the maternal-,,,



To very complicated feelings, to "(Photos) expression" own-
Now even if Motte, It should be noted that,, I,,,






> Desi ゞ 154cm (o `· ω ·)!! About 82 km de ━ d (· ω ·` o) ━ ☆ Star
http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11100210174.html
Word of resentment to his father and mother a request from the home visiting teacher of psychic → → chastisement occasionally be a time to be mischievous pranks are their grandfather to go to school bullying → → → → The toilet occasionally bullied from school → → → go to school to sleep →



↑ was "a year-at the age of 10"-like,,,



-Stuffed
↑ other than infant age, photos have a "stuffed", so I did not have one-piece,,, this photo is, so, I myself, felt that "strange",,, very, There is no sense in feeling bad, being felt, is a picture,,,






> Paralysis of the face? Facial neuralgia? > I do not know-so-disease have never been to the hospital-
http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10884137224.html
At the age of 10
Repeated sexual abuse within-the-job or
> Face paralysis? Now
-Eyelid
-Mouth



> Tobioriro from the second floor and the knife-and-4 Baba brothers and their mother, Jiji and! Daisakusen! • When drunken episode? Is ☆
http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-11127166755.html
↑ room was "room" of the photo above, had their mother-reared childhood-



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>-General
http://ameblo.jp/buraiai/entry-10512433704.html

★ ★ face
Mr. Keiji Goto, a lawyer of 50 police officials aim to eradicate child pornography from @
☆ there is an unforgettable experience. 1998 was working on Internet crime in the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department. Was referred to sarcastically as "a brave person who came in from a superpower that child pornography" from the moderator, at a meeting of the (ICPO) International Criminal Police Organization was held in France. And Japan at the time such images covering the eyes and there is no law to regulate child pornography had been leaked all over the world. Lowering the head-to investigation officials "sorry" in each country was enough to do. Seemed inadequate regulatory Law for Punishing Acts Related to Child Prostitution and Child Pornography of enforcement of the following year. Wound of the heart-child of the subject can not say a lifetime. "Why does Japan insensitive to pain of the children why this much" jumped out, police organizations and 2005. I passed the bar exam during his tenure of 92 years. "I wanted familiar with the law." Faced with law book on holiday or when commuting. 33-year-old. Was passed in the fourth challenge. Tensin was after flying to petition to lawmakers, such as asking for the prohibition of simple possession of child pornography, a lawyer. At the end of March was also formed group 0 lawyer role. "Child pornography is child abuse itself." Belief does not change.
(Tomitokoro Kosuke Sasaki, Noriaki social unit shooting)




> Overcome extremes-Adult Children
Still, digested, and he must overcome, I think,,,



This is, data of one
As will be one sample,,,

Right now the children, are suffering from bullying and abuse, as we will be saved even a little,,,
Everyone for Adult Children should be noted that even now suffering, as we will be saved even a little,,,

・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・
-過去日記・転載・小学校時代-( 写真・お祭り )-

このころは・学校でイジメられていたので
とにかく、母が買ってくる・オンリーワンのような・ダボなどではなく
・町内会のはっぴ
・その辺で売っているダボなど
   ↑母は・納得してくれませんでしたが、それでも、なんとなか納得してもらえるように、四苦八苦でした


もう、このころには、お祭り自体に参加したくなくて、しょうがなかった頃でした
>ひじょ~に~キビシィ~(^^;;;
     ↑そんな・写真です?・・・il||li_| ̄|○il||li