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↑ I'm sorry,,, Here is Gibb,,, today, tomorrow, I write as much as possible Contd.
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A doctor, even once, because I have never been
This is whether the "flashback", I do not know,,,
> Such as literature and Internet search about-in the Adult Children
Another, much, I can not
-I can not read,,, I have become painful
Really, now, I'm afraid
Tears have blurred
But What emotion is "quiet" ...
But, for some reason, only tears, I bleed in corner of the eye
And throat, and tears
In pain, and Atsuku~tsu
I clogged throat,,,
Every now and then, I wrote a few lines,
With both hands, holding the face
Are you staring? (Lol
↑ But the tears, I bleed, even throat, "emotion",,, I do not Wakan is,,, he is packed
If you are writing, it, but I would ridicule, yourself by yourself
This is
But me
> The person of Adult Children
Surely, if they become one-of something, because I think,,,
No less a bulletin board,
In the past, I also, as were saved,,,
· "Baton" of that time
At me, they will not get caught,,,
Even a little something for someone
One-of something, you will get used to,,,
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The tears come out? (Lol
Even a runny nose, I come out (lol
But emotion does not know
So, it's not a quiet
But
Throat, painful
Throat as well, jam
To this reason, the tears,
Myself I do not know,,,
But it is, much,,,
Like this, we have to cry alone
can just play
-Smile
-Retarded
Fun-
Rice-happily-delicious-
Retarded, immature, sexually-
↑ "the shadow of his father's brother-shield",,, much, this. Jizo as a scapegoat, because it was my role. From "I was supposed to be incurred" ·,,, all that all that literally
But this is,,, "are crazy"
↑ finally,,, so far, seems like, I've got got,,,
This is insane,,,
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Before the elementary school, up,
There is sexual abuse
Up to quit the job, until the age of 27
did not,,, it is stopped, (laughs
When I retrospect
From the time of the elementary school,
• When you go out suddenly
· Motivation? It is, in a whirl, the heart, the air a little, feel, accumulate a lot, and Itaku~tsu, I was scared
But
Fun-
· I do not know anything, retarded
↑ it, because it was my role. Always, happily, I was laughing
From the age of 10, maternal uncle, and grandfather. Every day, from his uncle, I be sexually abused.
I hate it, you go to the bathroom in the park, the toilet of the shrine
This time, the people of the adults who do not know, 10 people from several people,
In the toilet, it had to be an ambush,,,
> Another, I would not want to! !
> I want to die! ! Tai die! ! I want to die! !
Many times, I would have thought?
But my mother, just in front of me
Repeatedly attempted suicide.
Emotions will disappear.
But I catch in one's arms, the mother crying.
Tears, bleeding,,, lol (
↑ This is "crazy" ...
If now, I know,,,
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> ■ and shall find, and live? ■ (- chain-own industry -)
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Every day, was painful.His was Kitanarashika~tsu. I wanted to escape. But, anyway, I wanted to get the force to live alone.But, at the same time, and as much as anger, resentment, has tormented me.So would I want to kill the social and all things that plague me.From Japan, other countries to leak sensitive to much, and I would ask for help,,,But, in the eyes of curiosity more than this, I did not want to be exposed. Anymore, I wanted to be divergence. . .
And,,,,,,,,,,,Would be condemned, people.Of those people, family and lovers, children, friends,,,They are, in order to protect their loved ones, may not forgive me,,, it, I was scared,,,"Although protect, important people, thoughts unwavering" ", eyes of relatives",,,,,, they were afraid,,,
↑ about now,,, this is very scary,,, himself, would get stuck,,, scary,,, and have gone on Su-kun, know,,, he would be miserable? But> (lol, so this is the I-,,,
So, again, I will, "prepared", many times,,,
>, And decided "Fuck!", I was prepared for
Daily, many times,
Again,
To those end of time,
> Prepare yourself,,,
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> 1 year, at the age of 10. It is a toilet in the park, had a "sexual harm",,,,
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When I have received in a park restroom unspecified number of man, the sexual abuse I 140novel [2/14 18:59] #. Mom and I have the time to help eateries-grandmother. There was talk of opening eateries from large corporations to mom. I'm really knew. "The majority of people, a number of unspecified" public toilets is who. Is it where people in uniform, I knew I was really
Why, 140novel mama [2/14 19:04] # I'm really knew, or had been absent from school out to the company to only me. Mom said. "You are the restaurant would not be kicked out if there are children." I'm convinced. I've got to, and is "conviction" is the core Mama, pretend you do not notice But, because mom repeatedly attempted suicide, just in front of me
I 140novel [2/14 19:09] # puts a suggestion to you. "I do not know anything." "I" can not "I do not remember anything ..."-nothing. I make a suggestion to you repeatedly. Who is wrong? Why not? I just wanted Wasuresare from anyone. I was painful and I do not want anyone's memory, much remains. I'm sad now, just to be adults
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> Meaning of "shield". (20070608)
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Mother, father and entertaining now increased, I take you out to the shrine, I said.Now, to educate the younger brother to become the next president, "You defend.An increasing number of new contracts, because I go home now much larger.More, Try to hold you too.And future brother I went to the company, like his father. Follow two people, please become a shield to protect! And ".
Another, there was no sense from the solution. What you do is being said. What are you being asked.Why do you have to request it to me. At all, meaning I did not lead.Maybe, I probably did not want you solved. I think I had been rejected, that the defense instinct to understand, it.
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> Revival home. (20070606)
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We had some time before you can go to Ginza, visit to the shrine.Each time, my mother came to me to talk about "revival house."My mother got married I told my father, this may be due to the fact that revival, the house that my father's downfall.My father's house did fall, I would blame the mother of my father is tribute to the other woman.So, he and his father's house to revive.To do this,You not alone solve the bad mother, "Dad?, Because a man like that.So, you will please become a shield for Dad!If one person stand someone, family because everyone can become happy. And ".
"Everyone will be happy." . . Jiji and mischief is, Uncle. Beaten.If you run away, even in a public toilet in the park, are uncles prank on you do not know.To kneel down on the ground, but I still get placed. . . Do we have to become happy?
I no longer say anything.think that, though I should have been such a lot. I could not tell anything.My mother continued.You "When the selfish, you are probably the family ya?'m Getting it apart again?In all, you'll want to be happy? I would want to live together?So, you will be a shield of the father, Defend! ". . . And.
I refused, you can not have. Because of my family goes to pieces, if I told.I refused, you can not have. Heart seemed to go screaming.Heart seemed to go peeling broken.My mother, than this.Each time to be alone with me, "protect the father! Considered and shield," and I now urge.
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> Is my father by the hand. (20070609)
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> The children, I want to give, "future", a fresh,,,
Interests, and not those of adults, the chain of negative,,,
To children, they
I'm not good to let take over,,,
The children, the children
> Have the right to live free - the future! !
Never! !
Deprived of it, the
Any background that
> Negative chain
> It's a negative legacy,,,
In children, it is the future that I envisioned to freedom
In children
> Severity living
> Wisdom to live
> Live application
And, surely, gentleness, are me equipped,
I do not know anything, the children
In the selfish thought of adults, in the background
And future concepts and unilateral
And I planted, I do not think
It, that the children of the country
What in the world
That the children of any state
> Bondage of adults
> Bondage of the world
> Bondage of history
In children
Free future
A free choice
I want to give,,,
Freely, and we are branching, the world, I want
For children
> Future envisioned free-
I have not been able to do it promised, is
Heritage and negative
• When the chain's negative, I think,,,
It is irresponsible
Somewhere, someone
I have to go cut off, and I can not go, because I think,,,
Little by little, if I might be able to
Had to do, because I think
That's where a child
That the children of Japan
> Envisioned my future-free, the world can not go wrong with the effort-
· The interest
· The negative legacy
The chain-negative
I would go fill them,
Little by little,
Within the range that can be done in my own
I continue moving,,,
> Regret do not want to! !
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> Adult Children,,,
Do you know?
I much?
> I just wanted to die
only to die, but when boiled
I'm was "salvation"-single,,,
But, I was "parked", and even then,,, lol (
Do you understand?
To be dead-in-your intentions if Kigatsuke, are not allowed
↑ After all, do wrong,,, I only the world suicide, no salvation, for such is wrong
So,,,
> I had a rash,,,
> Fait accompli. (20060830)
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To rally the weekend, there was going to see the cars that you dress up and act as a gallery sometimes runaway.There was also sound the horn sounded, as clearly fueled.Then, unanimously, the person who has parked me ride together. I'm laughing."Death brawl over who got carried away." And okay, I was just wondering.The had a bat, I'm fueled for an opponent. But I just "had happened" the bat as a hobby.The company has a "suicide" is, and will not be reflected, over time over the years, it was impressed. . .
↑ wrong,,,
This is the
That a child anywhere in the world
That the children of Japan
> I'm wrong! !
For children
> Right to go to explore the possibility-and-their-free future! Right I'll make an effort! ! The
There absolutely should be able,,,
Is not it,,,
Our adult, selfish convenience
• As a toy
• As of AI,,,
Not excuse dealing,,,
In children
A fresh, in freedom
Is bad manners, is angry
If there are elderly people, or give up one's seat
Meanwhile, of course, kindness and compassion
to live
I think that the
That the effort
Aeru that respect
I'm important,,,
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> I remembered, the time I was staying,,,
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Even if it's headed, but also in solitude,
More, this time, I will open your mind.
Believe.
People.
Not result,
Because I want to believe, the people,,,
Believe. Will continue to believe.
Someday, someone, I might reach,,,
Better believe it is, because I'm happy
· Mental strength
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> Somehow [8/21 17:45] # 140novel, ^ ^ cry (;;; politicians and political form, I have had "corruption", so>,,, lawmakers also condemned it, I was not-too-Japanese media,,, to the children of the next generation, it? Would you go is, I do not regret that decision to take over, this?
> The really 140novel [8/21 17:50] #, but we have to fight it, even at the age of 10, a tearful smile and corruption (> of its own, and more than that, so much the Japanese government, I had been corruption-in, there would be what would've been hell, and became made and agency scrutiny, and the evils of proportional representation, we religious evils of political participation think
> Little 140novel [8/21 17:58] #, also, from the tea-then the "I-and usually does not change" ... lol (> of "dysfunctional family", after which will cry, right now, on nerve strength that can be myself, I'll act, or tears for what..., but. that I myself do not know, that I'm such mon come cry,,, emotional, quiet without stopping Nevertheless, I'm crying
> I [8/21 18:02] # 140novel is not only cry like this. I only know how to cry like this. Not you shed a tear for their still might be happy thing. "Dysfunctional family" and I will fully play a face wash I cried a little. And I are going to be as much as possible to me now then the real action. Children right now for me is because inner child
> Feelings 140novel [8/21 18:05] # do not know, this is my will, "record",. And rehabilitation of utterance. Long life, that it is a "shadow of his father's brother-shield" in the small family. I've been asked, and recording of "Jizo scapegoat." Even Jizo scapegoat,,, it's not a human. Feelings even if we are rehabilitation, little by little, because you should be able to perceive,,,
> A person's wealth and politicians would be "political form" ... and,,, would be "reason, intellect and discussions" ... for what [8/21 18:13] # 140novel,,, rather than their own people The number of so,,, I have forgiven, politicians hope, would be responsible for us adults,,, even "application the" wisdom of life "" live, to the children, not tell, social composition, ,,
> The 140novel really [8/21 18:16] #, tears such leave, but I> (lol, even tear yourself miserable,, I guess there is,,, also in tears shameless, I guess there is, anymore, not children, and the children of today, and,,, I dont gotta leave a legacy, a chain of negative-long economic case of politics, but still, I people who are in the pro why
> So, tears 140novel [8/21 18:18] # is such out,,, my, shiftless,,, but I> (lol, now, it is over and in front of it. "Dysfunctional family" Failure to do so, the drop can not go to the next thing,,, the computer, I cried a little, according to their fitness now, the action real. washing your face, you a cup of tea, he is without stopping I will continue to
> "Pus" [8/21 18:21] # 140novel · leaves ·,,, I like 10-year-old did not endure,,,, again,,, in turn, pus-"not its specific to go to branch freely to the world, and draw-own way, will give, "and, future, a clean-the children of today,,, even a little, if you might be able to, he did not stop Let's do it
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> Deshi ゞ 154cm (o `· ω ·)!! About 82 km de ━ d (· ω ·` o) ━ graphics ☆
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I was nearly stopped-height, from the age of 10
Childhood height, high, but I'm kind of trouble was a-,,,> More back-will-call if it How high? And,,,
But at the age of 10Relatives on the maternal side, the sexual violenceOur "Uncle"-unknown-unspecified number ofFrom their "Uncle" ... the mall, a number of specificFrom one year, for several years, he will be subject
Thereby, accident-is now happening to my body-
My height, so it stopped, almost, from this time-Was urine leakage, so that-Became Khao • The number of places so that twitches as facial neuralgiaI was tormented by headaches, terrible, during 24 hours, waking
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